That's what the man said! Not in quite as few words, but that's exactly what it amounts to. And I'm okay with that. It's good to know where one stands.
I'm referring to my eating/swallowing challenges. I went to see my old friend Dr Hansen today, the wise man who once diagnosed my cancer. He said that mechanically everything is working fine, it just doesn't work smoothly. Because of limited lubrication of course, but primarily because the muscles have simply lost their flexibility.
And like I said, I'm okay with that. Nice to know where one stands. The good news is that he does not think I am especially vulnerable to choking, which was an ongoing worry of Claudette's. She was afraid of being in the position of having to save my life one day, and not having the skill to do it. I suspect maybe she was more afraid of being in the position of having to decide whether to save my life or not!! Ya think?
Anyway, as far as I'm concerned that puts any and all cancer related decisions behind me. I am what I am, and what will be, will be. I feel sorry for people with heart or lung issues, or diabetes, or MS or arthritis, or fibromyalgia, or addiction, or HIV/Aids...get my point?
And today I'm practicing my one day at a time philosophy anyway, since I can't work out. My rib thing doesn't feel like something that will get better real fast, and I don't know how to change it. I could go see a doctor about that as well, but to what end? As frustrating as it is for me, I know that the only cure is rest!
And when I put the last 2 paragraphs together, I suddenly sit up straighter in my chair.
The sudden, startling, overwhelming sense of gratification that I feel when I realize that unlike a lot of other people out there, my most worrisome health condition can be fixed with rest!!! Wow!!!
"A healthy outside starts from the inside."---Robert Urich
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Peter
I'm referring to my eating/swallowing challenges. I went to see my old friend Dr Hansen today, the wise man who once diagnosed my cancer. He said that mechanically everything is working fine, it just doesn't work smoothly. Because of limited lubrication of course, but primarily because the muscles have simply lost their flexibility.
And like I said, I'm okay with that. Nice to know where one stands. The good news is that he does not think I am especially vulnerable to choking, which was an ongoing worry of Claudette's. She was afraid of being in the position of having to save my life one day, and not having the skill to do it. I suspect maybe she was more afraid of being in the position of having to decide whether to save my life or not!! Ya think?
Anyway, as far as I'm concerned that puts any and all cancer related decisions behind me. I am what I am, and what will be, will be. I feel sorry for people with heart or lung issues, or diabetes, or MS or arthritis, or fibromyalgia, or addiction, or HIV/Aids...get my point?
And today I'm practicing my one day at a time philosophy anyway, since I can't work out. My rib thing doesn't feel like something that will get better real fast, and I don't know how to change it. I could go see a doctor about that as well, but to what end? As frustrating as it is for me, I know that the only cure is rest!
And when I put the last 2 paragraphs together, I suddenly sit up straighter in my chair.
The sudden, startling, overwhelming sense of gratification that I feel when I realize that unlike a lot of other people out there, my most worrisome health condition can be fixed with rest!!! Wow!!!
"A healthy outside starts from the inside."---Robert Urich
Love
Peter
So rest, already! Read another classic. Get better!
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