We got home around supper time, and what a great feeling. To be home, to see Mig and Adrian, and even get a hug from our youngest son. To find the place all in order, and to get rid of our grandchildren! :)
I feel pretty mellow. Not up, not down, just quiet. I look forward to getting back into a routine fairly soon, and while I will get back into training at a leisurely pace, I do want to at least start going back to the gym and the pool. I also need to get some structure back into my eating, because I'm quickly giving back the gains (or I guess that's losses) I made earlier this year.
And while I describe the feeling as mellow, it is entwined with a great deal of optimism. I feel like I have a lease on life for another year, and while there will be some nuisance stuff in it, I feel confident that I can keep it all in perspective. Certainly Sally's death has been very good for me, as I believe, was the failed Ironman. Both of these events have me taking stock of my life, and as I take stock, I am filled with a sense of wonder!! I'm also filled with a resolve to change a few things, which of course I will tell you about as I go.
And this sense of wonder also got me "wondering".
I wonder what I would feel like right now if everything in my life were identical, with the exception of having signed up for next year. I wish I could tell you with confidence that I would still feel so optimistic?
And furthermore, I also wonder what I would feel like if everything in my life were identical, with the exception of the failed Ironman; if I had the perfect race? I wish I could tell you that I would still feel so optimistic?
So while I was still wondering all these things, I sat down to deal with 10 days of mail, and amongst all the junk I find this.
A card from my cherished, and very wise friend Deb.
Inside it were the following words.
I feel pretty mellow. Not up, not down, just quiet. I look forward to getting back into a routine fairly soon, and while I will get back into training at a leisurely pace, I do want to at least start going back to the gym and the pool. I also need to get some structure back into my eating, because I'm quickly giving back the gains (or I guess that's losses) I made earlier this year.
And while I describe the feeling as mellow, it is entwined with a great deal of optimism. I feel like I have a lease on life for another year, and while there will be some nuisance stuff in it, I feel confident that I can keep it all in perspective. Certainly Sally's death has been very good for me, as I believe, was the failed Ironman. Both of these events have me taking stock of my life, and as I take stock, I am filled with a sense of wonder!! I'm also filled with a resolve to change a few things, which of course I will tell you about as I go.
And this sense of wonder also got me "wondering".
I wonder what I would feel like right now if everything in my life were identical, with the exception of having signed up for next year. I wish I could tell you with confidence that I would still feel so optimistic?
And furthermore, I also wonder what I would feel like if everything in my life were identical, with the exception of the failed Ironman; if I had the perfect race? I wish I could tell you that I would still feel so optimistic?
So while I was still wondering all these things, I sat down to deal with 10 days of mail, and amongst all the junk I find this.
Inside it were the following words.
"WONDER....As a master I open my eyes to the wonder of being. Delighted in the way things turn out, amazed at the beauty of it all....the perfection. And I am happy!"
And how she knew I have no idea, but Deb, you nailed it....I am exactly where I need to be!! That reminds me though that I also have to credit my wife one more time. It was her decision that put me exactly where I need to be! I guess that's what friends are for, eh?
"Wisdom begins in wonder."---Socrates
Love
Peter
And I credit my wife with her wisdom to your wife.......YOU ALL KNOW HE'S GONNA WANT TO DO THIS DAMN COURSE AGAIN!!!!!
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you're where you are. Your optimism and enthusiasm and love for others and genuine caring about all sorts of things is contagious and beautiful. Thanks to you (and Roo) for being where you are and who you are.
ReplyDeleteLove, gail