"Pensive"

For me that's a good thing.  When I'm certain of things, it's usually accompanied by stress.  This evening my thoughts are all over the place, and as backwards as that may seem, this helter skelter sensation also seems to leave me with a feeling of peace.  I'm pretty sure it has something to do with being a control freak.  When I acknowledge that I'm unsure about a fact, a concept, or even an idea, it's like taking a sedative.

Or…maybe not??  Did you know that Ritalin is a stimulant!  I was shocked to learn this fact today.  Yes indeed!  We feed our children a stimulate to help them relax! Maybe agreeing to give up some control works the same way for me.  Perhaps thinking about potential twists on my preconceived notions actually stimulates my brain, and in turn helps me to relax.  Who knows?

Regardless, the problem with my current state is that despite starting this next paragraph 3 different ways, none of the ideas seemed to develop naturally.  I think I'm just gonna leave it at that.  I anticipate a good nights sleep, with a hard bike workout in the morning.

swim 1250 metres, weights

….and I really like this quote.  It's good advice for me.

"The intellect is a cold thing and a merely intellectual idea will never stimulate thought in the same manner that a spiritual idea does."---Ernest Holmes

Love
Peter