When your big sister (Elly), and your little brother (John), and your extra sister (Cathy), and your adopted sister (Gail), are all telling me basically the same thing, I suppose I should pay attention. Especially when 3 of them are older than me, and the other one purports to know everything!! So yes Elly, I should be grateful for my great life, and yes John this is identical to last year although much earlier, and yes Gail I need to think long term, and thanks Cathy for agreeing with John, and further encouraging his attitude!! NOT!!
Regardless, I probably know all of those things to be true. What no one has given me is any advice on how to actually cope. Well actually amongst his very kind words John did suggest more housework, but I'm pretty damn sure he hasn't gained that bit of wisdom from first hand experience!
And you may be surprised John to know that in this particular case Roo would not necessarily be agreeing with you. She worries when I don't work out, for reasons I'll explain later.
To help understand, and as a from of confession, I probably need to explain one of the big reasons I get so stressed when I don't work out. I'm willing to bet that each and every one of you can relate, and I know for sure that my wife can. You see, crazy as it seems, I worry about managing my body composition. Since my illness I have gradually learned to eat again, and I have gained a wonderful appetite for ice cream, cookies, pasta, doughnuts, etc. As well, food is an integral part of my life balance, as I eating is one of the biggest ways I deal with anxiety and depression. Sound familiar to anyone? Yah, I know…not a very healthy attitude, and I'm not proud of it, but it is, what it is. Now can you imagine when I remove the other big stress reliever from my life. The one that offsets both the extra calories I consume, and the twin curses of anxiety and depression. Again, I'm know my wife understands totally, because despite the differences in our personalities, that's one area where we are practically related!! Try telling her she can't run for a few days, and I can promise you the worlds gonna end abruptly!!!
So perhaps that helps you to understand (I know it did for me as a wrote it), or perhaps it just sounds like an excuse. Either way, it is so nice to hear your feedback, and you all make me feel loved. Your comments inspired me to at least take this day completely off, and I now await your advice on how to manage my anxiety, (don't say exercise) and how to mange my eating.
I do believe some spring weather would go a long way since it encourages lots of other activities that I find helpful. There's no shortage of stuff that needs repaired, pruned, rebuilt, or at least re-organized around here, but it needs to be outside to have the right affect. And blowing out the driveway got tired a long time ago!! Also, maybe it's old age, but I find working in the cold to be just plain aggravating anymore.
Oh, and my heart rate is back to a nice, strong, steady 50 BPM. I will decide what I'm doing tomorrow, tomorrow!
Thanks for everything my friends!!
"Statistics show that of those who contract the habit of eating, very few survive."---George Bernard Shaw
Love
Peter
Regardless, I probably know all of those things to be true. What no one has given me is any advice on how to actually cope. Well actually amongst his very kind words John did suggest more housework, but I'm pretty damn sure he hasn't gained that bit of wisdom from first hand experience!
And you may be surprised John to know that in this particular case Roo would not necessarily be agreeing with you. She worries when I don't work out, for reasons I'll explain later.
To help understand, and as a from of confession, I probably need to explain one of the big reasons I get so stressed when I don't work out. I'm willing to bet that each and every one of you can relate, and I know for sure that my wife can. You see, crazy as it seems, I worry about managing my body composition. Since my illness I have gradually learned to eat again, and I have gained a wonderful appetite for ice cream, cookies, pasta, doughnuts, etc. As well, food is an integral part of my life balance, as I eating is one of the biggest ways I deal with anxiety and depression. Sound familiar to anyone? Yah, I know…not a very healthy attitude, and I'm not proud of it, but it is, what it is. Now can you imagine when I remove the other big stress reliever from my life. The one that offsets both the extra calories I consume, and the twin curses of anxiety and depression. Again, I'm know my wife understands totally, because despite the differences in our personalities, that's one area where we are practically related!! Try telling her she can't run for a few days, and I can promise you the worlds gonna end abruptly!!!
So perhaps that helps you to understand (I know it did for me as a wrote it), or perhaps it just sounds like an excuse. Either way, it is so nice to hear your feedback, and you all make me feel loved. Your comments inspired me to at least take this day completely off, and I now await your advice on how to manage my anxiety, (don't say exercise) and how to mange my eating.
I do believe some spring weather would go a long way since it encourages lots of other activities that I find helpful. There's no shortage of stuff that needs repaired, pruned, rebuilt, or at least re-organized around here, but it needs to be outside to have the right affect. And blowing out the driveway got tired a long time ago!! Also, maybe it's old age, but I find working in the cold to be just plain aggravating anymore.
Oh, and my heart rate is back to a nice, strong, steady 50 BPM. I will decide what I'm doing tomorrow, tomorrow!
Thanks for everything my friends!!
"Statistics show that of those who contract the habit of eating, very few survive."---George Bernard Shaw
Love
Peter
Late comment! I get it completely, and I wish I had an alternative to eating. Perhaps I will find one. Eventually.
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