It's been kind of a weird day. I woke up in a bit of a funk, both mentally and physically. Even though at the time I was okay with it, my crappy run caught up to me I think. Of course the run itself doesn't matter, but my ego keeps telling me that I should be able to handle the current workload without trouble. And physically I just felt strange. My heart rate was doing new things this morning, and then on and off for most of the day, although it seems to have settled down now. It was quite slow (down to about 45) and also doing this strange one fast beat, one slow beat. thing. Don't anyone dare worry about that cause I sure ain't. It was just kinda weird, and like I said, left me feeling a bit out of sorts.
My visit to the pool this aft while Roo took the kids to a movie really settled me down though. I swam with my wetsuit, (well actually I swam in it, not with it) and that always gives me a sense of confidence. I also went 2 kms which is the furthest I've done this time around, and it was no problem at all. I'm pretty sure I could already do the distance (4 kms) without any serious stress.
The reflection part of the day was mostly around Elly and Gail's feedback about keeping it in perspective. I think part of my problem is that I still need to prove something to myself after the epic fail last time out. I suppose it's not healthy to want something as badly as I want to conquer Mont Tremblant, but for right now my obsession is gonna be allowed to reign. But I am thinking that if things go reasonably well in August I may take a whole new approach to future endeavours. If I'm prepared to accept a 14-15 hour Ironman, I know I could do it on half the training, and perhaps be healthier and happier in doing so. Still thinking.
And healthy and happy is what it's supposed to be about isn't it? Actually I have this theory around that. I believe we have a responsibility to be happy, and that we should feel guilty if we aren't doing everything necessary to achieve that state. Kinda backwards to what the nuns taught me, but then again that probably proves it's validity!!
Tomorrow, I'm supposed to be back on my bike, and right now I don't know how that's gonna go. I do have a plan however. I will wear my heart rate monitor, and if I can't get my rate up where it belongs then I will pack it in early….I promise!
And I'm glad it's the basement tomorrow, because this winter thing has just gone beyond!! There are no words!!
swim 2000 metres, weights
"The real man smiles in trouble, gathers strength from distress, and grows brave by reflection."---Thomas Paine
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Peter
My visit to the pool this aft while Roo took the kids to a movie really settled me down though. I swam with my wetsuit, (well actually I swam in it, not with it) and that always gives me a sense of confidence. I also went 2 kms which is the furthest I've done this time around, and it was no problem at all. I'm pretty sure I could already do the distance (4 kms) without any serious stress.
The reflection part of the day was mostly around Elly and Gail's feedback about keeping it in perspective. I think part of my problem is that I still need to prove something to myself after the epic fail last time out. I suppose it's not healthy to want something as badly as I want to conquer Mont Tremblant, but for right now my obsession is gonna be allowed to reign. But I am thinking that if things go reasonably well in August I may take a whole new approach to future endeavours. If I'm prepared to accept a 14-15 hour Ironman, I know I could do it on half the training, and perhaps be healthier and happier in doing so. Still thinking.
And healthy and happy is what it's supposed to be about isn't it? Actually I have this theory around that. I believe we have a responsibility to be happy, and that we should feel guilty if we aren't doing everything necessary to achieve that state. Kinda backwards to what the nuns taught me, but then again that probably proves it's validity!!
Tomorrow, I'm supposed to be back on my bike, and right now I don't know how that's gonna go. I do have a plan however. I will wear my heart rate monitor, and if I can't get my rate up where it belongs then I will pack it in early….I promise!
And I'm glad it's the basement tomorrow, because this winter thing has just gone beyond!! There are no words!!
swim 2000 metres, weights
"The real man smiles in trouble, gathers strength from distress, and grows brave by reflection."---Thomas Paine
Love
Peter
Just my two cents worth, but this sure sounds familiar to me. Like maybe last summer when you couldn't get your heart rate up? I know you must be saying to yourself that it's not possible that you are overtrained right now, but the symptoms sure sound the same to me? It occurs to me that overtraining may actually happen more easily as your body ages? I am sure you have researched the crap out of all these training plans, but do any of them take into account that you are a 60 year old cancer survivor? I applaud your tenacity and dedication, but maybe you are too focused on the prize? I understand this is a double edged sword, but maybe hatching chickens and mentoring and grout cleaning need a tiny bit more attention? As I write this, I can't help but wondering if Roo will read it and in her quiet way, say "that's what I said"?? Regardless, I remain very proud of, and inspired by your journey. Following it has also taught me so much, and I am very grateful for that as well. I see last years crash as an awesome lesson for so many aspects of life, and I know also that even if you are a year older, you are indeed a year smarter as well. I am excited to be there when you cross that finish line in August, and there is no doubt in my mind that you will, regardless of when!
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